Week 7: 'Back Here Again - In Burn Out - But This Time, I’m Learning'.

I’m seven weeks into my 35-week “All In” challenge, and I’ve found myself back at the edge of burnout. But I’m not treating it like a failure or something to feel bad about. This time, I caught it earlier. I recognised the pressure building, and I’m making changes. All I know is if I don't, I’m going to hinder my ability to truly succeed.

I’ve realised I have a habit of filling up my timeline. It’s not because I’m trying to avoid anything, or because I don’t know how to rest. It’s because I care so deeply about my work, and I want to truly succeed. I’ve got a clear vision, big goals, and a lot of responsibility. When I see gaps or things that need doing, I jump in. That drive has taken me far, but I also know it’s the same drive that pushes me to take on too much. The kind of drive that doesn’t allow me to fully propel my journey forward, because I’m doing too many things at once.

Even when I take one project off my plate, something else shows up and I think, “Yep, I can handle this too.” And the truth is, I can... but the cost is high. It stretches my energy, clouds my focus, and leaves me feeling like I'm drowning under immense pressure. That’s not the kind of life, journey, or leadership I want to model or sustain.

What I’ve come to understand is that I’m not burning out just because I don’t have support. I’m burning out because I haven’t let myself fully use it. I’ve carried so much of the vision, the planning, the doing, and then felt guilty handing things over. I hesitate to delegate because I don’t want others to struggle. And if I’m honest, I’ve been let down more times than I’d like to count. That’s made me wary. So I over-explain, over-prepare, and try to make everything easy for everyone else… but in doing that, I end up overloaded and exhausted.

It’s time to shift that.

I’ve reached a point where I need to surround myself with the right people moving forward. People who can carry parts of the vision with me. Not just follow instructions, but bring their own strengths, skills, and insight. I want people who are aligned, who care, who are smarter than me in areas I don’t need to master, and who want to build something excellent. I truly believe if people understood that every opportunity is a chance to grow and strengthen their own path, everything would elevate.

Because if I keep trying to do everything, I’ll keep blocking myself from doing the things that really matter. The creative, strategic, leadership-level mahi that I do well. I don’t need to have all the answers. I don’t need to be across every single detail. I need to drive the vision, not run myself into the ground.

This challenge isn’t just about being busy or productive. It’s about growing, stepping into a new way of operating, and backing myself enough to trust others and lead differently. I’ve already proven I can do it all. Now I’m learning that I shouldn’t have to.

That’s where everything starts to shift. And this time, I’m paying attention. Over the next month, I’m making it my top priority to learn how to delegate properly, find the right people, and build the support I need so I can focus on doing what I’m really here to do: pursue my creative goals, build financial security, grow generational wealth, and make a meaningful impact in the world.